Is in that anyway you can purposefully catch a really doomed to failure disease?

not anything lethal though. Preferably a disease that is really throbbing. How would you "catch" something like this? I discern like i stipulation to suffer. Now i don't need any psychoanalysis advice i freshly need answers. Thank youIs in that anyway you can purposefully catch a really doomed to failure disease?
Go somewhere where on earth Ebola is present.
and your set.
"Treatment is primarily supportive and includes minimizing invasive procedures, balancing electrolytes, replacing lost coagulation factor to help stop bleeding, maintain oxygen and blood levels, and treating any complicating infections. Despite some initial anecdotal evidence, blood serum from Ebola survivors have been shown to be ineffective contained by treating the virus. Interferon is also thought to be ineffective. Ribavirin is ineffective. In monkeys, administration of an inhibitor of coagulation (rNAPc2) have shown some benefit, protecting 33% of infected animals from a usually 100% (for monkeys) lethal infection. In hasty 2006, scientists at USAMRIID announced a 75% recovery rate after infecting four rhesus monkeys beside Ebola virus and administering antisense drugs"
I think you are already suffering....don't you?
That's insane. You really DO involve therapy. Nobody surrounded by their right mind would WISH pain and suffering upon themselves. There's something royally messed up more or less that. Get yourself to a church or a therapist and express before you do something stupid.
Go and catch bitten by a malaria carrying mosquito. Encourage them to breed by getting something flat and largish, that will hold water. Let the wet go stagnant. If you live within a warm climate, humour will do the rest.
Pathetic.
Join the democratic party?
munchausen syndrom is what I judge you already have, Go see a doctor for it swiftly